There’s something extraordinary for me
It’s waiting just around the corner
The older I become and the wiser I get
The more I feel its presence getting closer

My restless soul and my eager heart
Will find it’s place in this world
The boldness that I bring to the table
Will surely not be left unheard

Can’t wait for the future and what it brings
And all that life will come to be
I be damned if I don’t end up living
A life amazing and extraordinary


You’re a puzzle I’ve been trying to put together
But the pieces never seem to fit
You’re a riddle I’ve been wanting to answer
But it seems that I’ve lost all my wit

You’re a theory I’ve been dying to prove
But the data always gives me some doubt
You’re an equation I’ve been attempting to solve
But none of the formulas ever tend to work out

These mysteries of you keep me coming back
Despite how hard I try to start anew
Because no matter where I end up in life
I always find myself caught in the riddle of you


I feel nothing
I’m barely even there
Reach your hand out into me
All you’ll grasp is empty air


On the nearing eve of this night of darkness
I dedicate this poem to the monsters inside
To the demons we’re faced with everyday
That make us shiver, run and childishly hide

We all have skeletons in our closet
From coming out, depression, to overpowering insecurity
We all deal with our own forms of self-loathing
Unresolved pain and unwanted scrutiny

This life can be unkind and unfair
Sometimes it takes a lot more than it gives
Meeting people that would rather trick than treat you
Can make it rather hard to trust and forgive

We tremble and we shudder
But for strength you’ll never have to look too far
Look for the light inside you
And realize how truly strong you are


Never fully out of the woods
Always within harm’s grasp
Hungry shadows lurk in corners
Waiting for weary souls to clasp

Is the meadow somewhere near here?
Is the clearing at arm’s reach?
I’ve gone tired of restlessly searching
For this solace I beseech

All I can ask for is a little bit of light
But the trees are far too dense
In this damned life of discontent
Do things ever start to make sense?

The shade is far too suffocating
The cruel cold is seeping in
I long for times of innocence
To feel the sunlight on my skin

The nights go by in stifled screams
But still I try to see the good
And when this world chooses to prove me right
Is the day I’ll finally be out be out of the woods


Always keep one foot out the door
Because this was never bound to last
As it is with all of life’s erraticisms
This again too shall pass

Whether a taste of heaven or a taste of hell
Be it warm sunshine or blazing fire
Don’t fool your wide-eyed self into thinking
That you’ll be stuck within the mire


Meet me in the middle of the hues of night
Where white turns to black and black turns to white
The beauty lies within the pigments of gray
With its triumphs, promises and all its dismay


I start the engine and take a drive
Speed my stifling fears away
The widening, increasing distance
Keeps the festering at bay

A drive down Pacific Coast Highway
Is all I really need
The waves, the waters, the setting sun
I’ll follow the road wherever it leads

I see the flashing lights and curious faces
They all go by in a blur
I feel the wind tingle against my skin
I hear the engine’s soft and constant whir

The parallel lines serve as my refuge
The wheels carry my restless heart
And maybe when I get back to point A
I’ll finally have my brand new start


I toss and I turn
By sleep I’m befuddled
The darkness is beckoning
My sheets are left rumpled

Wretched and restless
I agonize in my wake
I try to dull the pain
But it’s still a constant ache

No arms to hold me
No warmth to keep me still
An abyss of unsaid longings
And there’s just too much to fill

So instead I lie down staring
And listen to my breaths
Wondering how it will go down
If this is all just one big test

Maybe it’s the lack of bedtime prayers
Maybe it’s a lack of faith
But if this life’s just one big fight
I don’t want to come out unscathed

Would you please sing me a lullaby?
Maybe that’ll do the trick
Show me pictures of fading sunsets
And paint me images acrylic

Or maybe just whisper in my ear
Say everything will be alright
Tell me that you love me dearly
And to get some sleep tonight


Society wasn’t built for our spirits
Not made to make us feel alive
It’s sole purpose is to use us dry
Our true human natures deprived

We weren’t born to live as slaves
To mundane work and meager wages
Suffocated by distilled air
Left slowly rotting in our cages

All these jobs of 9 to 5’s
Perpetuations of our misery
Everyday tedium of making means
Can’t you feel the fucking toxicity?

My god, wake up
This isn’t the life we’re supposed to live
Beyond these prison walls
The world has so much to give

I want to break free of these chains
But this enemy’s too vile of a warrior
He’ll tighten the shackles and add on the weights
And keep eating at your wounded interior

I want to break free of these chains
But honestly I don’t know how
I will keep fighting till my dying breath
At least this I can avow

So join me in this revolution
Take my hand and please hold tight
Our freedom lies beyond these walls
And don’t you dare lose sight