If you’re getting tired of our love
No one is forcing you to stay
No hands are trying to hold you back
You’re free to walk away

But trust me our memories will haunt you
When you realize what you’ve forsaken
Oh my love, my darling you’ll come to know
That by me you’re surely taken


In the territory of my heart
You chose to play the offense
My defensive strategies barely fared
In the wake of your persistence

You managed to win the game, steal my heart
Cut through my defense lines
Pass self-inflicted borders and self-esteem grenades
Survived crawling through explosive mines

But you turned against me in the heat of it all
Left me deserted and betrayed
Thought I was kissing the lips of an ally
When I was consorting with the renegade


I offer my body despite myself
But they never end up wanting more
And I’m always left twice as empty
Wishing for the way it was before


I was blind to all your ugliness
You never treated me with respect
You persisted despite all my pleas
Now all I have is the weight of my own regret

There’s nothing for us to go back to
The end of it as far as I can tell
And amidst your constant lies and manipulations
I somehow broke away from your spell


It seems to me that you’ve found someone else
Someone to talk to through the days and nights
But honey, one thing I know for sure
You’ll be looking for me when they dim the lights


I was honestly quite nervous
To finally see you after seven long years
Would we crack jokes resonating in laughter
Or will we find ourselves reminiscing in tears?

I don’t know what I was hoping for
Maybe for us to still have some spark
But you seemed to have moved on completely
While parts of me still linger in the dark

I did enjoy hearing what you’ve been up to
It seems you have your life figured out
And the greatness of what you’ll achieve in this world
Is something I’ve never even begun to doubt

It was really nice to hear your laugh again
But to be honest it made me quite sad
Out of nowhere I was overpowered with a sense of loss
For the chance I feel we never really had

But still the beauty and innocence of our young love
To me will always hold so much ground
A rarity in this often dreary world
A gem that we w ere lucky enough to have found

Although maybe this encounter meant a lot less to you
Than it overwhelmingly did to me
What you gave me is still the closest thing to perfection
That I have ever been blessed to see

There’s some part of you I desperately held onto
This vague idea of possibility
That maybe one day it could still be us
That somehow we were still meant to be

But maybe seeing you is something I needed
To finally put closure to what was us
And I can only pray to have another chance
Of experiencing the greatness of this kind of love

So be well my love, take care
I wish you all the best
And as I’ve said a million times before
You deserve all of this life’s happiness


I feel nothing
I’m barely even there
Reach your hand out into me
All you’ll grasp is empty air


Can’t help but get a little attached
To the person you lost it to
Can’t help the sting you feel
When he wants nothing more to do with you

Just remember this is what you wanted
It’s a decision that you chose to make
And it’s okay to be a little sad
It’s okay for your heart to feel a little ache

But you knew what you were getting into
You understood what the arrangement was
So just take a deep breath and move on
Because it really isn’t worth the fuss

But it really is quite interesting
How resilient the heart can come to be
After quite a few heartbreaks here and there
The less becomes of its misery

So quit pouting and shrug it off
He was the first but isn’t your last
Attachment just leads to suffering
And emotions dissipate way too fast


A little more romance
A little more spark
The way I imagined
My first time in the dark

But love and lust
Are of two different themes
And with enough willingness
Can be separated it seems

I lost it to you
This abstract possession
And some might even say
Was quite the indiscretion

But it’s what I chose, it’s what I wanted
So far I have no regrets
I can only hope one day I find
Someone to make it worth the bet


If I close my eyes long enough
It’s as if you never existed
Another premature occurrence
A fleeting flash gone by in instant

You used to be so sweet
Told me things I wanted to hear
But for a while I sensed your withholding
Bringing to the surface a sense of fear

You were an almost but not yet
Another what if and could have been
How I wish you could have been mine
But the wheels were just too quick to spin

How could you have said, “I love you”
Say the best you’ve finally found
Does that not hold ground anymore?
Were those words that easy to throw around?

Maybe you were just lonely
And the truth is I was lonely too
But for a while I was consumed
With hopeful thoughts and dreams of you

Sometimes I’m stricken by pain and regret
A pang of sadness for our stars that don’t align
But my darling, I’m reminded that it’s not possible
To lose something that was never truly mine